so as you can tell i haven’t been here in quite some time. and if i was on it consisted of loving things and the usual scanning through my tumblr over and over again. well we’re about 4 weeks into summer and i have been working, attended EDC, and been just relaxing. i’ve had some mixed emotions about some things lately. you wanna hear? who cares if you do or not here it goes. so i’m dating jeff and things have been good so far. we don’t see each other everyday which sucks pretty bad but we manage. i think its good. he doesn’t smother me, he is understanding, and sweet. EDC, ah yes you. my whole life has changed. my view on the world is completely different and i couldn’t be more thrilled with the way things have been going since then. i got to spend my whole entire weekend with my family and friends that i love. i met new people tried new things and can honestly say that was the BEST weekend of my life. family they have been okay not that much fighting only when people and things are brought up to me they know i hate talking about. sometimes i think my mom says his name just to fucking make me feel more like shit then i already do. BUT life goes on and i can’t dwell on things i can’t change. i miss annie terribly like awful. i miss having my best friend so close. i wish i was up in vermont already living in a house with the person who should be up there with me. not saying its jeff cause idk who it will be when that times comes. i was super bummed for a little bit cause a lot of shit this semester didn’t go the way i thought it was going to go but you live and you learn correct? so i guess i’m just learning for all my stupid decisions and good ones by letting certain people crawl back under from the rock from which they came. i’m in complete summer mode now. sublime, work, and summer air is all i got for now. keep on smiling and love yourself. 

so frustrated you wanna cry?